New Life , New People - But Old Me

I am wondering how fast the life went, still not realizing I am not a college boy anymore but someone who has to be a professionally competitive. Sitting in this office, Tavant Technologies - I don't have much time to think back. But whenever it does it makes me feel sad. I know everyone feel that, but time went so fast that I couldn't even know what all I missed to do and what all I did. But that's life, isn't

 it? Deviating from plan and making its own way where no one entered before. I do realize those but it still feels sad, but as someone great said we have to feel all things then only we can say we have a life.

I still remember writing a blog when I joined college, it was out of happiness with lot of expectations and dreams. I don't know why but I don't feel not even half of those feelings. Its dull and boring because I am afraid that next 30 years of life is going to be same where as I always wanted be different. There may be slight variations, some exceptional days may be there still can it be compared it with life I had for past 16 years? I don’t know what I am anymore or what should I become. Still never ending planning with all positive scenarios makes me feel alive. 

Don't know where I am going with this trying to get along all the way as it should be , trying to hold all ropes together without breaking.