New Life , New People - But Old Me

I am wondering how fast the life went, still not realizing I am not a college boy anymore but someone who has to be a professionally competitive. Sitting in this office, Tavant Technologies - I don't have much time to think back. But whenever it does it makes me feel sad. I know everyone feel that, but time went so fast that I couldn't even know what all I missed to do and what all I did. But that's life, isn't

 it? Deviating from plan and making its own way where no one entered before. I do realize those but it still feels sad, but as someone great said we have to feel all things then only we can say we have a life.

I still remember writing a blog when I joined college, it was out of happiness with lot of expectations and dreams. I don't know why but I don't feel not even half of those feelings. Its dull and boring because I am afraid that next 30 years of life is going to be same where as I always wanted be different. There may be slight variations, some exceptional days may be there still can it be compared it with life I had for past 16 years? I don’t know what I am anymore or what should I become. Still never ending planning with all positive scenarios makes me feel alive. 

Don't know where I am going with this trying to get along all the way as it should be , trying to hold all ropes together without breaking. 

A Thought

Expectation leads to disappointment . Disappointment to anger . And tat Anger leads to failure sometimes . Be careful my friends . . . . .

End Of an Era ( Life at CUSAT )

             Actually I did't know I just finished my college . The busy time doing nothing made me skip the knowledge of finishing my life in CUSAT . I am still wondering how fast it went , can't even realize that best of the life is over . As said beautiful things does't last forever .

           
            Starting it seemed to be so exciting ,but like everything which comes in life , it had flaws still it was the most variant time in life , cant even remember 1/10 th of whole college life . It was so much in it for me . But it went past in a eyes blink i feel , so fast it went that I could't recognize the borders of time . I even missed the feel when realizing the college was going to be over . We came in as strangers but leaving as  , just friends? - I don't think so !@#

      It was easy being with specific people , harder things was always to make it up to the people who does't know us so much . Thats what college life is all about . On the first day no one knows each other but last day we become who cant cannot be forgotten in their life . Most people find it ackward to talk first , but by god's grace I was't . I made friends than anyone else in this college and I am proud of it . There were backstabs and bad times , but that does't take away the happiness and joy I found in this CUSAT .

                 
           I Have to tell dance was best part in my college life . Some wont even believe my first time on a real stage was when in second year and every one thought I was a professional dancer . Dance changed my whole life in CUSAT . It was my may be only way out the classrooms . I cant even think about college if arts was't there. Nostalgia dance - the simple yet the most beautiful dance event  , which was kind of forte of mine
                       

      Dance is very unique art form , Dance always had a spirit going through it which unites us . It gave me lot of friends and relations which became part of my life . I understood it was't just me , which dance made a good medicine to become happy . The guys who made me feel like I was not alone in my crazy life .

I have to tell you guys " The Layatharang " you were the only people I felt I was normal . Because the dance spirit in our blood makes us restless which others wont understand , truly becoming part of Layatharang gave an different angle for my Life .

             Arts is time of clashes and different opinions but when it came to the team all stood united . It was a time when people understood not only who could draw , sing or Dance but for all who wanted do something for the team . It was never easy on the time of arts it gave us the most tight schedule , but that makes us stronger , harder and faster .

       
          Placements was the time of comedy for me , lot of tears , joy and tragedy for some others . Even though my heart too was broken several times . But as the old saying , What ever does't kills you makes you stronger . I became stronger by cracking 3 out of 4 interviews given . And understood if you loose something not because of your mistake surely something better is waiting for you . As always I am placed far away & alone from everyone I knew before in my Life .                
             Life is for enjoying , Is't it ? I don't know why all are serious . Actually most are't serious they just show it so that others will think them as matured -Wasteeeeeeee . People may call me immature , nuts , mad , etc. but I don't care because I don't to spoil my happiness for the sake of others words.

                                              My class - Still a mystery for me . because at every moment it seems to be changing or reveals a different angle . Sometimes I thought some like me and some hated me , but at different times that "some" changes in my view .But hoping, that "some" will vanquish as the time splits us apart .

Broken Heart

Is it good to have have a soft heart? It depends is't it ? I am writing this because of a special phenomena I have observed in teen and young people . Those who doest fall in love doest love at all in till marriage .
I think I found a similar scenario

First , I will tell those gets in relationships again and again one after another - They have a soft heart . The peculiarity of the soft hearts is that they can be glued together easy and nice , think about something made of soft material like plastic . If its broken we can use simple fevi quick to stick it back together ,rite? but is that the case with stone made?



     You may think hard hearted people are fortunate , but not they are the suffers. Once broke rarely it cannot be fixed . Even if we find some super glue to fix that , still crack remains there . They are harder to break though. Some people never falls into love , but once they get in either they cant get out or gets hurt and never loves again , usually first thing happens . They never fall in love . second scenario is rare with hard hearts .

Are you hard hearted or soft ?